Thursday, March 04, 2010
My LoveI know we are still together . Nothing seems to separate us but is the feeling still the same ? I miss those words . I miss everything about you . Your lips say you're fine but deep down inside your heart I know you're not . I am not fine either . The hugs and kisses from you every time we meet are still there . You never changed abit of it . Still the same old you . Just one thing that I really want to know ; do you still love me like how you used to ? I know the word sorry is easy to say but you can't accept it just like that . I'm trying my best to clear away the scar that I've left in your heart . I've hurt you so badly and I realised that I'm not a good girlfriend for you all this while . I shouldn't have hurt a heart that loves me . And because of one mistake that I made , everything turned out to be this way . I kept thinking of you and how sinful I am to hurt someone whom I love most . I admit it's my fault for keeping those things from you . I would be totally hurt too if I were in your shoes . I've never loved someone like how much I love you . Seriously . I have a feeling that your love for me is not the same anymore now . All because of my own mistake . But here I am , trying my best to win your trust and win back your heart . I've deleted those numbers from my contacts list and the only guy number I have is yours and your friend's . I'll prove to you that I'll change and can be trusted . No other guy except you . This I promise you . Mark my words and hold it tight . This time , I'll do what I say . I don't want to lose you and with the love that I have for you , the heart that beats only for you , I believe I will be able to overcome all the obstacles that I have to before I could win your trust again . I won't give up on my love this time . You're the reason why my eyes can't stop tearing . I need you in my life and I will do my best to gain your trust and love back . I will not let us apart . I've never feel love like how you showered me with yours . Once again , I'm very sorry for hurting you so badly , Love . I love you very much !
Tears are still rolling as I type out every word in this post
" Love the heart that hurts you ,
But don't hurt the heart that loves you . "
Dearest Love ,
I am truly sorry over the mistake that I did . I won't repeat the mistake again and I just want you to know how much I love you and you mean everything to me . You showered me with your love and make things that are impossible turned out to be possible . I am very sorry for leaving a deep cut in your heart . I will do my very best to make you stand up again and have faith and trust in me . In other words , I'll prove to you that I'll never repeat my wrongdoings again . Never ! Because you're my precious gift from Him . I love you , with all my heart , Love .
With Love , Nurul Affiqah
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Monday, December 21, 2009
" You'll have to be patient , Love .."
I was awaken by the scream of my little brother . Slept at 5am and woke up at 11am .
Yesterday , work was as per normal , only that I was so happy and did smile & laughed alot . People are wondering what was wrong with me and kept asking if I was okay . I don't even know why was I so happy yesterday . I sing songs while walking and smiled so much . Hehehe !
I talked to Nizam over the phone yesterday but he was not in the mood and didn't talk much . I wonder what was wrong with him . Maybe he's tired and didn't get enough sleep . We hung up the phone soon after that an I had to call another friend of mine . Talked to him till 3am then he was off to sleep . So , I was left with nothing to do but listen to songs that I've just download . I am very sleepy now . I need to take a nap before going to work . I'll wake up at 2.25pm , get ready then off to work . ((:
Till here ..
Love , Nurul Affiqah
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Monday, September 28, 2009
Hello Sweethearts !
It had been a tiring week for me . On friday till yesterday (sunday) , went out for Hari Raya Outing . Bad day yesterday as I did had a fight with someone . I don't want to mention names . Thank god it's over now . I walk my own way and walked on his own way . No more contacting each other from yesterday onwards . That was such a relief for me . I've been praying hard for the day to come and finally it did . I don't feel regret or sad after all that had happened . Maybe it's because I don't take the relationship seriously . I don't even feel his love or care or whatsoever . So , what's the point in continuing right ?
Might as well I end it . Am I right ?
Everything has ended . So , that means , I am back to my singlehood life . Oh great . I need not worry about anyone now . I gave him a last message just now when I'm in school . I thanked him for everything and told him to take good care of himself . One more thing , I told him not to eat chocolates .
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I signed in my tagged account yesterday night and saw a photo comment alert . I opened up the photo to view its comment and saw an ex of mine commented on my photo , saying stupid things . I deleted off the comment and gave him a message in tagged . I told him from A to Z about why I broke up with him and I told him not to disturb me anymore . I don't need him . He replied to me saying so many "Sorry" and he gave me 5 tags saying sorry too . Haha
Well , I've already forgiven him but if he wants me to be with him again , I'm sorry I won't and I can't . The door to my heart had shut tight for anyone . I've had enough of all those love games that are never treated seriously . Guys fool around here and there . Flirts with one girl after another . One is never enough , you see . Agree ?
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School was as per normal today . Only that the malay gangs planned to go out for Hari Raya Outing this Friday . I , Feezzah babygirl and Elfira babygirl won't be going with them due to a reason . So , basically , we will go out on our own . The HEARRTS clans only . We planned to go out after our N level paper on friday . I am really looking forward to a full HEARRTS outing .
I get to know someone new today . Hehhs !
I addressed him as BushyMushy and he calls me MushyBushy . Weird nicknames right ?
Hahahahahha ! But it was fun knowing him . We disturbed each other and laughed our asses off .
He's in camp now . Very far from Jurong but he's staying quite near to Jurong . Hehehe !
Looking forward to meeting him someday and we'll be doing shopping together . Buy clothes for occasion or should I say event . Formal dressing (:
I'm currently sms-ing with Rabiahtul Babygirl and my one and only BushyMushy . (:
Later at night , I'll be talking on the pjone with BushyMushy again . Hurhur !
Okay Sweethearts ,
till here for now . I'll update again later or maybe tomorrow .
<3
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