Sunday, March 07, 2010
Current Mood : Sad , Disappointed
Current Song : Your Call
Many things are stucked in my mind right now . My phone broke down just now in the morning . I can't swithch on my phone . Panicked . Search around for a phone and found an old phone that belongs to my dad . Took out my sim card and place it in the other phone then switch it on . I think my battery condemned or something due to charging my phone for more than 10 hours . Stupid me . Thought of using dad's another phone but since he's so stingy so forget it . I hate people with that kind of attitude . Went down and waited for them then off to Bukit Timah Courts to do some shopping . I was totally in no mood to talk so I just kept quiet and plug in my earpiece , turn on the volume to full blast . Lazy to entertain people .
On my way back home , I received a text message from boyfriend and I called him up instead . He's having problems like again and this time he refused to tell me his whereabouts and who is he with . Okay nevermind maybe he needs to be alone for now . I'll give him time and I'm sure he'll text me up he's fine . Now charging sister's Sony Ericsson phone . Will be using her phone till I get my new battery for my Sony Ericsson W508 . ):
I miss boyfriend badly ..
with love , Nurul Affiqah
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Thursday, March 04, 2010
My LoveI know we are still together . Nothing seems to separate us but is the feeling still the same ? I miss those words . I miss everything about you . Your lips say you're fine but deep down inside your heart I know you're not . I am not fine either . The hugs and kisses from you every time we meet are still there . You never changed abit of it . Still the same old you . Just one thing that I really want to know ; do you still love me like how you used to ? I know the word sorry is easy to say but you can't accept it just like that . I'm trying my best to clear away the scar that I've left in your heart . I've hurt you so badly and I realised that I'm not a good girlfriend for you all this while . I shouldn't have hurt a heart that loves me . And because of one mistake that I made , everything turned out to be this way . I kept thinking of you and how sinful I am to hurt someone whom I love most . I admit it's my fault for keeping those things from you . I would be totally hurt too if I were in your shoes . I've never loved someone like how much I love you . Seriously . I have a feeling that your love for me is not the same anymore now . All because of my own mistake . But here I am , trying my best to win your trust and win back your heart . I've deleted those numbers from my contacts list and the only guy number I have is yours and your friend's . I'll prove to you that I'll change and can be trusted . No other guy except you . This I promise you . Mark my words and hold it tight . This time , I'll do what I say . I don't want to lose you and with the love that I have for you , the heart that beats only for you , I believe I will be able to overcome all the obstacles that I have to before I could win your trust again . I won't give up on my love this time . You're the reason why my eyes can't stop tearing . I need you in my life and I will do my best to gain your trust and love back . I will not let us apart . I've never feel love like how you showered me with yours . Once again , I'm very sorry for hurting you so badly , Love . I love you very much !
Tears are still rolling as I type out every word in this post
" Love the heart that hurts you ,
But don't hurt the heart that loves you . "
Dearest Love ,
I am truly sorry over the mistake that I did . I won't repeat the mistake again and I just want you to know how much I love you and you mean everything to me . You showered me with your love and make things that are impossible turned out to be possible . I am very sorry for leaving a deep cut in your heart . I will do my very best to make you stand up again and have faith and trust in me . In other words , I'll prove to you that I'll never repeat my wrongdoings again . Never ! Because you're my precious gift from Him . I love you , with all my heart , Love .
With Love , Nurul Affiqah
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